Weird Things Happen at 4 am

Weird things happen at 4 am.

Last night I couldn’t sleep. I’ve been having a lot of anxiety lately and every time I put my phone down for sleep, the anxiety reared its ugly head again.

-How many sales are we going to have this week?
-Have I paid all of our bills?
-Did I forget to answer any customer emails?
-Did I eat dinner?

Those were the trivial ones (not unimportant but trivial on the scale). Then the big ones hit me.

-What value am I adding to our family?
-Why can’t I seem to find my joy?
-Will I ever find what I’m searching for?

Yep, I told you. They were big ones.

Ever since I quit my job as Vice President of Finance for a marketing company three years ago, I seem to be caught in this vicious cycle: Get a big idea. Pursue the big idea. Abandon the big idea because I hit a roadblock. Decide I’m going to go back to a traditional job. Look for a traditional job. Hit a dead end because nothing I find is exciting enough and I’m either under-qualified or overqualified. Question my entire self-worth. Retreat to myself and ignore it all. Find new inspiration. Repeat. THIS IS AN EXHAUSTING CYCLE.

Well, last night it hit me - at 4 am.

I am doing exactly what I want to be doing. And I need to quit torturing myself. The cycle is simply distracting me from doing everything I’m already doing just a little bit better.

Who else can say these things?

-I am able to travel and experience the entire country, coast to coast. 
-I am able to spend countless hours with my family, making memories. 
-I love what I do for work.
-I love sharing my experiences with people.

Sounds pretty perfect, right? There’s one small problem - I need to make more money. Yep, I know, pretty significant problem.

But there is some good news! We have an incredible, quickly growing business that I can directly impact. We need to increase our profit margins and we’re taking some pretty big steps to make sure that happens by the end of 2022. We’ve also made a ton of progress on growing our social media following for Lackeys Be Trippin’. If we can get our YouTube channels for both Bison and LBT to 1,000 followers, we will automatically start monetizing those channels. If we can get more traffic to our website and more people to engage with our content, we can increase our Amazon Associates revenue. We are so incredibly close to making a living - off simply living! And that, my friends, gives me joy.

P.S. I know you didn’t ask but here are a few ways you can help if you feel inclined! (But no pressure!)

1. Follow and engage on our channels (Facebook, Instagram, TikTok and YouTube).
2. Share our story with your friends. Maybe we are doing something that can inspire someone else? I challenge each of you to invite five people right now! Go!
3. Make your Amazon purchases using our link if you’re not already supporting another ‘cause’! We make a percentage of each purchase made within 24 hours of accessing the site with our link. https://amzn.to/3moavf3​​​​
4. Ask us about our BIG plans for Bison - there’s room for you to get involved (and get something in return)!

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